Pump It Up!

Published June 11, 2026 | By cvadmin

Welp, I got the pump out an hour ago.

So here is my new regime for the next 12 weeks:

Monday – show up at the cancer center, get my five hour infusion, leave with my pump attached.
Tuesday – live my best live with a pump attached to Kuato on a shitty amount of sleep from not being able to fall asleep due to the steroid they gave me at the cancer center.
Wednesday – Feel a bit crummy all day, maybe take a nap because I woke up nauseous in the middle of the night and couldn’t get back to sleep. Go into the cancer center mid day and get the pump disconnected.
The next 11 days – try to heal my body for the next round of chemo.

Lather, rinse, repeat.

So other than some mild nausea and the shakiness, the only other symptoms that have been hanging out are a tingling in my jaw when I eat something for the first one or two bites. You know when you eat a really sour candy and it gives you that feeling in your jaw? Like that. Also my sleep hasn’t been the best, but I think that might be because I’ve been attached to the pump and I sleep light hoping it doesn’t fall off the bed or I choke myself out with the tubing.

Oh and the constipation fun started this morning. That was not pleasant but at least I was able to eventually go. I have some miralax that they gave me in the hospital if I need it, but I don’t quite dare to use it as one of the other possible side effects is diarrhea.

Such a fun entry this is!

Remembering to eat is now a thing. Given that I’ve been in a calorie deficit for the better part of five years, I NEVER thought this would be a thing. I’ve had food noise for the last four years or so and it gets pretty bad. I have joked that GLP1’s would do me no good because I would just eat right through that shit and I really thought I could/would, but now I’m thinking no.

Nothing sounds good to eat and then I get caught up in the cycle of being hungry and not knowing it so that causes even more nausea and so on and so forth. I’m trying to force myself to have small snacks all the time so there is a base on my tummy at least so I know if it’s starvation or actual nausea.

The nurse told me something today and I haven’t googled it to see if it’s true or not because I kind of want to believe it, even if it’s not.

She said that the next couple of days are going to make me feel really crummy because the chemo has gone through and killed a bunch of cancer cells and now my body is going to start dumping those dead cells and that is why I’ll feel icky.

I like the idea of thinking of me getting sick because those motherfucking cancer cells are dying. So even if it’s not true, that is what I’m choosing to believe. 🙂

It does feel good to not have the pump attached to me so we’re going to put that in the win column.

Please enjoy a bonus photo of Shilo with her tongue sticking out while she lays next to me in bed.