With the auditions for RENT looming in the immediate future it was time to meet up with Eva again tonight. When we last met Eva told me that I would need to find a monologue to rehearse and also gave me some tips on my voice.
I’ve been rehearsing the song but more with the original song than with the background track I have. I’ve discovered this might have not been the best idea…but I have another week to work on that. I also had been on the hunt via the internet for a monologue to rehearse. I didn’t like a lot of the ones I found but settled for one that seemed to be fairly simple. The problem was I just never quite jived with it. I could do it, but I found it not as easy to memorize as I thought it would be. I hemmed and hawed for a while. Trying to memorize it but still trying to find a better one. Finally two nights ago I found the one I wanted. It was all about father issues so I could pull from experience. Bonus, there was a youtube video of someone doing the monologue. I’ve always been able to memorize better from audio than visual so that helped a lot.
So tonight, exactly one month later(totally not planned), I headed over there tonight to get her opinion on how I had progressed. But before I get into that I had another huge step for me happen this afternoon.
My girls and I headed out to lunch today, which we try to do once a week or so. On the way back to work the subject of me going to Eva’s tonight came up and so I told them about the monologue I chose and then they asked about the song. I told them it was an Idina Menzel song and Paula said: “Let’s hear it.” and turned the volume down on the radio. I didn’t protest. I thought, how can you go sing in front of a bunch of people you don’t know if you can’t sing in front of your best friends?? With only a second or two of hesitation I launched into the song acapella and sang the first verse and chorus. This was HUGE for me. I always say no when someone asks me to sing without preparation and usually WITH preparation.
As I got back to my desk at work and the shaking subsided I was blessed with the biggest adrenaline high I have had a in a long time. It was pretty amazing. I actually found myself thinking: “I can’t wait to sing for Eva tonight!” 🙂
So I showed up at Deborah and Eva’s a little early. Eva had just woken up and was in her room. So Deborah and I played with the dogs and chatted for a little bit. When Eva came out we talked a bit more and she answered some questions I had about the auditions. Then it was time to sing.
Last time I sang for them I had to face away from them. This time I faced them. I even looked Eva in the eye one or two times. 🙂 When I was done they both told me that they noticed I seemed less nervous and my vibrato was less this time(I’ve been working on that but I wasn’t sure it was working…). Eva gave me a couple more tips and then she sang the songs she was thinking about auditioning with for me. That girl is sooo freaking talented! She has a huge range! I was impressed. Then we sang “Take Me or Leave Me” together(girl duet from RENT). That was fun.
Finally I did my monolouge. I had to read it as it wasn’t totally memorized but when I was done I was happy when Eva said she that it was good and she had no advice for me on it. That was really good to hear because, while I sing all the time, I had never done anything like acting before. It almost made me more nervous than the singing! 🙂
After the hard stuff was out of the way we talked a bit more before I headed home.
Today was a really big day for me. I did a lot in the way of realizing and calming some of my public speaking/singing fears. I’m quite proud of myself actually.
One more week until auditions. Wow.
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